Just to stat, this is a personal post so you won’t understand it. I’m just trying to relieve myself of my jumbled-up feelings. Please don’t comment or ask questions or anything.
I feel… Weird. There is anger, sadness, self-pity, craze. Its all sort of mixed up. When I see that person, I feel that I would explode with all these emotions.
It is not something I should feel for that person at this time and age so I dare not tell my parents. As for my friends, for one they would not get it and for another I don’t have a real good friends that I can confide to.
That person hates me a lot, scolds me, curse me and laugh at me. That is when I feel like crying.
At the same time, a nice person too. That when I feel happy.
When that person blames me for everything in the world that goes wrong, I will feel angry.
When I am around that person, I will be unable to act normally, thats when I feel crazy.
Self-pity? Easy. Every second of my life
I really don’t know what to do about myself. Its like I changed. Im not, me.
A Girl who wishes to live in a Fantasy World